To all my Fatties: Do you ever feel like you're too well-adjusted to lose weight? Let me explain. When I was 16, I went from 208 pounds to 147 pounds mostly through severe calorie restriction. I starved myself. I can remember having a no breakfast, a plain baked potato for lunch, and just a small dinner portion. Man, that was great. It was so easy! I had a disordered eating mindset that made it so easy to not eat. The weight just fell off. As always, I'd gained it all back and then some by the time I was a senior in college.
After I got over my teen angst I became the person that my parents raised me to be. Strong, confident, independent and thoroughly well-adjusted. Even though I'm still desperate to lose the weight I can't get back that starvation mindset. I'm too damn mentally healthy.* I don't want to punish myself. I don't want to hate myself. And yet, years of experience tells me that's the only way my body is capable of losing a substantial amount of weight. Yikes! Well, I can't go back. I'm almost twice as old as my high school junior self. But I do need to make some major changes.
I'm going to try and relive some of those high school habits. I'll let you know what's working and what's not.
*I want to be clear. My gratitude towards my mental, emotional and physical health is palpable and unbound. My mind and body are sound and whole and that above all else trumps any bullshit weight issues.
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